The Same Ole Song

The days seem ever longer
My heart continues to break
I'm racked with indecision
Fate seems to glower
Laughing at me for even trying
Each turn I take
Someone else seems to suffer
I tried to end the vicious cycle,
Yet it found me, again and again
Sometimes these thoughts interrupt
Singing the same tunes I used to hear
Day after day it's harder to ignore
Can I handle more?

Being Swallowed

The feelings return
Darkness looms
I seek the lining
That which saves
It seems within reach
But forever distant
My mind just wanders
How long til I breach
When giving in, becomes sweet relief.........

Life's Decisions

Twists and turns have guided me,
Never knowing the direction,
Never sure about the right decisions,
Which were mistakes being made...

This is how I've gone through life,
Now, I wonder, if that's been my problem,
Always ignoring the feelings,
Losing more than I've gained...

Now I've lost even more,
Not sure if I'll ever get it back.

So, how do I change this?
Get it all safe and secure,
To protect my family,
Without losing my sanity?

Do I finally open up, let the truth out??
Or continue to ignore??

The Block

The time has passed,
Simply no words come,
It seems a block,
Only a block...to what?
Which part?
Which time?
Is it good?
Could it be...........

I will wait it out,
Eventually, it will seek me....

I Protect

They're cute, they're smiley,
They're shy and they're onry,
No matter how they are,
My life will always revolve,
Around these special children.

They can run around and play,
Running and jumping,
Filling the world with so much surprise,
Every day I WILL RISE,
To each of their defenses.

Never can the world hurt,
Never will it take away their hearts,
Letting them grow as children,
Leaving them their innocence,
That is what I protect.

The Holidays!

Through the holidays it was clear,
My love was always near.
Family and friends unite,
Bringing JOY through the night!
Our voices heard throughout,
Laughter and stories renowned.
A time to keep close to our hearts,
Memories cherished, never part.
Grateful for this to be here,
For all of us, to be able to share!

Holiday Knowledge

The holidays used to be filled,
With monotinous dread and fear,
Never knowing but always expecting,
Someone or something,
To come steal the joy away...
Then my world changed,
Being joyous, being happy!
Realization that those who love,
Will do all in their power,
To share that all around!
Stopping and protecting,
Making the unbearable,
The ghost of Christmas Past...
Bringing kind actions and words,
The aura of Christmas Future!
Never will I forget the great memories,
Family and Friends have given me,
That have carried me so far!

No matter what the holidays have in store,
Remember there may be those,
Choosing to make it hard,
Yet there's always ONE to share,
The LOVE and JOY they possess,
Bringing it forth just for YOU!