Life's Decisions

Twists and turns have guided me,
Never knowing the direction,
Never sure about the right decisions,
Which were mistakes being made...

This is how I've gone through life,
Now, I wonder, if that's been my problem,
Always ignoring the feelings,
Losing more than I've gained...

Now I've lost even more,
Not sure if I'll ever get it back.

So, how do I change this?
Get it all safe and secure,
To protect my family,
Without losing my sanity?

Do I finally open up, let the truth out??
Or continue to ignore??